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  earthquake in IL back in the 1960's

  by TotallyADD in

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  i remember the fear i had, i thought i was going to die because the big a started.

  all it was a little shaking of the plates and glasses in the cabinets.

  it was 1967 or 1968 late fall on a saturday morning.

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  I just finished reading your life story .....((((totallyAdd))) We have a lot in common growing up in those years .
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  earthquake in IL back in the 1960's

  by TotallyADD in

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  i remember the fear i had, i thought i was going to die because the big a started.

  all it was a little shaking of the plates and glasses in the cabinets.

  it was 1967 or 1968 late fall on a saturday morning.

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  We had just moved to Illinois from North Carolina in 1966 . I was in first grade in 1967 and can't remember an EarthQuake . What part of Illinois was it in Southern or Northern ?
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  ...Aguest/Shelby is out of the Hospital and Recovering...

  by OUTLAW in

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  i`ve recieved an email from one of the dearest people i know,here on jwn... shelby had major surgery at the end of february..she is just getting her strength back... this thread is for her... leave a message..say a prayer..send good vibes... it all helps when a person is recovering... thanks... .

  shelby... i`m sending good vibes your way... get well soon my friend... .

  ........................... ...outlaw.

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  Hope your feeling better soon
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  Where has Elsewhere been???

  by Elsewhere in

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  i noticed a few people inquiring where i've been.

  the simplest way to explain: been busy with life.

  i guess i reached a point where i no longer "needed" to come here for catharsis.

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  Hey there , good to see life is keeping you busy . Enjoy a little visit once in a while .
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  Did This Religion "Screw" You Up & If So--- HOW?

  by minimus in

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  There are many reasons why I personally felt 'screwed up' .The JW religion was one of the biggest contributors of my troubled mind .

  Mainly the impact it had on me as a child was the insistance I be 'different' ,and separate from others my own age . I never felt like I belonged ....any where ...at school I had to sit out in the hall during social parties ,go home early when there was pep rallies or other events that made the other kids feel part of the school spirit . Because my Father was retired military ,and not a witness ,I really didn't feel totally accepted in the hall either . Never as a child were we invited to another Witnesses house as a family . My Mother instilled into me a pure fantasy of how perfect other Witness kids lives where because both their parents glorified God .

  These feelings of being isolated were coupled with Armageddon fears ,and other events in my young life that ended up causing a low level anxiety and depression that plagued me for years . The constant voice in my head as a kid was "your not good enough " ,"your bad and you do bad things ", "God could never be happy with you " .

  One year in High School we had to keep a daily journal that the Teacher read . She was looking for us to write down our inner thoughts ......During this time I was going through typical boy issues at school and was being hounded by the Elders for conduct unbecoming of a Christian . When she read what I was going through and what I really thought of myself She became quite alarmed . She confronted me one day and asked if I was at risk for hurting myself ......I learned that day not to be so honest in my journal . Learning to bottle up my feelings and to keep things inside had become very easy to me by now .

  Even when I was very small my Mom taught us not to voice any of our problems in front of our Dad . If we had a bad day at school because someone made fun of us for not celebrating a holiday we just had to learn to suck it up because it was more important to please Jehovah than ourselves . I recall sitting in the hall at school fighting back tears and feeling like an outcast ,but mentally telling myself ,'This is making Jehovah happy ,this is making Jehovah happy......"

  There is so much I could say on this topic ........because so much of my life was wasted feeling I was screwed up ,then I found out no it really isn't me it is what I was taught to be that was screwed up . The last few years my mind has become Untroubled finally . I really just enjoy being me . Those negative thoughts quit soon after I quit attending the brain washing sessions at the Kingdom Hall .

  When the Elders came by last spring the first thing they did was try to instill fear about the horrible conditions of the world . I cut that talk off right away . Then they said they missed us .....and I immediately asked 'why did it take you four yrs to say so' ? ( I don't bottle my thoughts up anymore ) In the end the Elder did not really care that I was now happy and undepressed . In fact in the end of their visit the truth came out that the only reason they had come by was to find out if we were now celebrating holidays . That caused me to assert my new found freedom of telling them my life Is no longer any of your business and I will not answer personal questions .

  So did the religion screw me up ....well hell yeah for too many years I think it did .

  But the better question is :Can you personally take power and unscrew your life ? Hell yes !

  You don't have to let one more day go by allowing what has been to be ,what will be .

  That is what is so great about this forum ,we hear from people in all stages and we can believe it is possible to regain our lives . I know it has encouraged me reading experiences here to never give up or give in .
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  Give a man a fish...give a Haitian a watchtower.

  by maninthemiddle in

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  nothing feeds a starving person quite like a watchtower.. .

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  Very true BluesBrother she was only a study and meeting attender ........ got to follow the rules you know , no food and clothing for you unless you were dunked in a pool .
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  Just look at these smiling faces!

  by coffee_black in

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  it was my granddaughter, bailey's third birthday yesterday.

  her bd party was last saturday.

  just look at these faces.

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  Awww Beautiful faces ! What joy
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  Give a man a fish...give a Haitian a watchtower.

  by maninthemiddle in

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  nothing feeds a starving person quite like a watchtower.. .

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  I knew of a young 18 yr old woman that had been attending meetings and studying .One night in the middle of a freezing midwest snowstorm she was thrown out of her apartment by her mentally unstable room mate( who was also a BS) . She didn't even have a coat or shoes on ...she called me for help and I went to pick her up and bring her to my home . At the time I had a teenage son at home ,and the Elders had already been warning my son not to date this young woman. So I called the Elder up and asked if he could provide shelter for her this night until some other living arraingements could be made .(he and his wife are well off and had a large home ) He was appalled that i should ask such a thing of him . We ended up in a heated arguement over it until I finally yelled at him and said I would take care of matters on my own .

  I was called into the back room at the next meeting with this young woman . She was told because she was just a bible study the people in the congregation would consider her like a cold wind up their backs ! After she began to make progress (in her conversion )then others would accept her with open arms . My jaw nearly hit the floor ." What about her immediate needs ??? " I was told the work of this organization was the preaching work ,not some kind of social work !!! " What about widows and orphans ????!!! Ever hear of the Good Samaritian !!! " I was furious leaving that room .

  The next day I told an Elders wife ,"Well I guess I have to turn to the local Churches to help her because the Jehovah's Witnesses sure won't !"

  She said "Oh NO don't do that ,let me see what I can do " After a huge hassel I finally found a couple in the hall willing to put her up for a few nights ,and no it was NOT an Elders family !

  This episode was the beginning of the end for me . When I saw how there was no Christ like love for this beaten up stranger ....I just knew I didn't want to be associated with it any more ....
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  Any one here ever experience a torn achilles tendon

  by troubled mind in

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  husband woke up this weekend in pain with soreness right above the heel on his foot .

  by sunday he was in so much pain he could hardly walk .

  monday his doctor said it looks like an old injury because there is calcification around the area ,and that most likely the tendon had been torn before and might be on the verge of rupturing completely .

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  Hmmm cowboy boot may be a good idea . Keeps it stable and looks better than those orthopedic boots ! If it completely tears /ruptures he will have no choice but surgery .

  My husband runs and referees High School football . He is hoping surgery will repair it so he can return to doing what he loves .
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  Any one here ever experience a torn achilles tendon

  by troubled mind in

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  husband woke up this weekend in pain with soreness right above the heel on his foot .

  by sunday he was in so much pain he could hardly walk .

  monday his doctor said it looks like an old injury because there is calcification around the area ,and that most likely the tendon had been torn before and might be on the verge of rupturing completely .

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  Husband had a torn knee ligament last year ,but the flap that was torn flipped back in place on it's own and he avoided surgery . This is much worse I fear . I have seen on the medical websites that the recovery may include a cast and six to eight weeks of healing .

  I just wanted to hear from someone that may have gone through it to know if recovery is that long .

  Glad to hear your surgery of the knee went well ,Snoozy . We are getting to the age stuff is wearing out !